bluntlysaid

I am starting to feel very guilty about not working. I initially excused the unemployment, which started in November, because it’s hard to find a job during the holidays, it’s hard to look for a job while you apply to business school, it’s hard to find a job when nearly every interesting company in NY is in a hiring freeze if not all out layoff mode, etc.

Some friends and some family say that I should enjoy the break—that I’ll work my ass off during b-school and then work my ass off until I retire, etc. Relax, they say, when else can you get away with an extended period of total freedom.

True.

Yet I feel guilty. I feel lame. I feel poor, because I am poor….any money I have has to hold out until I get to b-school.

What am I going to do about this? Nothing. It’s too late for a solid summer internship, and to be honest with you, I don’t really want to work that hard this summer. I’m also too lazy for a lame job, like working at a book store or a restaurant. Unfortunately, I can’t blame any of this on the layoff anymore because enough time has gone by for me to have found a reasonable job….this is my own doing.

I’m rambling…. but yeah, I feel guilty about not working.